summer has officially begun!

Untapped paradise.  Taken during our trip to Capones Island in San Antonio, Zambales last March 3,2007.

More pictures soon! 

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This afternoon, I was still enjoying my weekend high from our Capones trip.  I don't know what happened but as I was browsing through the "Broadcast Tower at Night" photography contest entries by the cafeteria, I suddenly felt really really sad.  Lately ("lately" extending to last year), it seems as though the running theme of my life has been "letting go."

It's still taking time for me to move on from certain things, so in the meantime, I've decided to move on from something else. I tried to be as less sentimental about it as I can be and I've been pretty successful.  Until this afternoon.  I envy those who can detach themselves easily from emotions.  Sometimes I think it's easier to be like them.  But then if I weren't as passionate as I am right now, I don't think I'll be living life as beautifully as I do ("beautiful" also including all the shit the world throws us).

It's just that…it's so damn hard.  Just when I'm beginning to feel at home again, I have to leave once more.  Well, this time it's by choice.  There's this strong force inside me that's screaming for "change," and I know if I decide to stay in my comfort zone, I'll be depriving myself of the chance to grow. Life is short, so goes the cliche.  Looking back won't take you anywhere.  But leaving yesterday behind could sometimes be such a lonely feat.

I am such a sentimental schmuck.  Dammit.

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  "There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

  Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe."

–BREATHE by Anna Nalick, Grey's Anatomy OST

(The day after Denny dies, Izzy spends the whole day lying facedown on the cold bathroom door, refusing to change from her prom dress.  When evening came, she finally stands up, faces Meredith and says, "I'm ready.")

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On a lighter note….soon, I'll be paid to do what I do best—TRAVEL and PARTY!   Who am I to complain?